Well, well, well......its been agesssssssssssss since I last updated my blog and posted an entry, I have been busy and how!! Well a quick update on what I was upto this last six months, took up a job as a lecturer in my own college ( not the boring types thou!), gave CAT and many, many of its clones, got a few calls, and have been preparing for them ever since!!
For the past six months, all that I could think of was an MBA.....nightmares, dreams, day-dreams et al. A recent study says that men think about women and sex once in every seven seconds. My analysis of the MBA preps say that an MBA aspirant thinks about Quantitative Aptitude, Verbal Ability and Data Interpretation once in every 3 seconds. That leaves out no time for any other malicious thoughts. To prove my point let me give a small list of the blog entries that I thought of, started and left midway.
In chronological order!!
1) And thus raj shrugged!!
2) When private is no longer PRIVATE!!
3) A corrupt mind is an Indian's workshop!!
4) Back from the hiatus....
Don't worry, you will never get to see the final copy!! Jokes apart, The past six months have taught me a lot, not only in terms of the knowledge I gained, but also in terms of knowing ME and my country!! When I had gone for my first ever GD/PI session (Group Discussion/Personal Interview for the unknown)...ARKS sir told us to learn a lot about many things. But, he said three things were of prime importance.....I, INDIA and the link between the two!! Learning and gaining knowledge about the country was not difficult, Google is a never ending resource with information being made available to you at lightning speed. Then came the difficult part, knowing myself.
"We are all primary numbers divisible only by ourselves" ~ Jean Guitton
I started off by listing things that are commonly known to everyone. Name, Background, College, Family, DOB.....i.e whatever my profile on Orkut/Facebook says! But these are stuff that everyone knows, I needed to research a lot on "ME". Slowly and steadily I sat down to make a chronological list of the events/happenings in my life. Then how has those events affected me as a person was next in the list. I was overwhelmed at the fact, that, there were so many things about me that I had blissfully ignored. And when I came down to link my life to the knowledge I had gained about India, I came to know one very important fact. My contribution to the country, or its progress is nothing but..............ZILCH!!
The preparations for MBA has had its bearing on me. I have started behaving as if, finance and economics was something I was ingrained with right from schooling. Take this incident for example...I was walking with a friend of mine. A house maid was walking towards us, she was using a high end mobile phone. My friend told me that the kaamwaali baai has a better phone than what we use. And all I could think was the TRICKLE DOWN EFFECT!! Now if I would have been my usual self, I would have just cursed my luck for not having a better phone, but the new MBA guy in me makes me think stuff that I could have scarcely imagined earlier. And the worst part is that at times I get into a state of soliloquy and people think that I am either crazy or divine!!
All men should strive
to learn before they die
what they are running from, and to, and why.
~James Thurber
On this note I bid goodbye, as I have a lot more to learn about economics, marketing, my acads, my country and most importantly..ME!! I AM WHAT I AM!!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Thursday, June 5, 2008
The dawn of a new season!!
"Rain is so beautiful,
to watch it we feel wonderful.
Tap! Tap! it drops down,
we feel like drenching under it now!
Little children in their raincoats,
putting in the water their small boats!
The fresh smell of mother earth,
makes us remember a child's birth!
It comes and goes every now and then,
and always makes us wonder its gonna come when!
Rain is so beautiful,
to watch it we feel wonderful!!"
- Rajendra Hegde, Std III A
Ya you read it rite....this was poem was written by me way back in the third standard. I had won the second prize in my school at that time for this poem of mine. Today, as I finally accomplish one more milestone in my life....I feel like that kid from standard 3 all over again. (I just went down and got drenched!!) As the title reads "The dawn of a new season" what do I mean by that? Does it mean that summer has just got over and the rainy season has started....quite obviously. But in my....and many of my friends case...it also means the a new season in life. Having just finished engineering...as my friend karen aptly puts it...I am now heading towards the big bad world! What does my future have in store for me.. I can't predict that. But, what I can say..is how much am I gonna miss my good ol' college days. These few lines from Bryan Adams' "Summer of 69" aptly describes what I did in my college life..
Man we were killin' time
We were young and restless
We needed to unwind
I guess nothin' can last forever, no
But, who the fuck cares? I had the best time of my life....did nothing great to be remembered. Ya, but will have many many great things to remember! Today when I handed over my paper to the invigilator, My heart felt heavy...Gosh its all over...no more jokes in the canteen...no more pulling legs....no more cupping...no more engineering! :'(
So here's a list of people I think who made my life in SFIT worth spending all these 4 years!!
1) Colin
2) Siddhesh
3) Anush
4) Sushant
5) Omkar
6) Steffi
7) Sheetu
8) Indu
9) Ray
10) Kiru
11) Amu
12) Ashok
13) Marwadi
14) Kale
15) Nishu
16) Deep
17) Pct
18) Tanvi
19) Pri
20) Ganju
21) Cheema
22) Jillian
23) Serena
24) Karen
25) Keshu
26) Sujay
27) Walke
28) Sucheta
29) Shenoy Sir
30) Nazneen Mam
31) Karen
32) Viral
and last bt nt the least...Sidanth Shetty!!
Am sorry if have missed out on anyone.....:)
As the run up to our farewell begins...All I would like to say is....
Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
ADIOS,
RAJ!!
to watch it we feel wonderful.
Tap! Tap! it drops down,
we feel like drenching under it now!
Little children in their raincoats,
putting in the water their small boats!
The fresh smell of mother earth,
makes us remember a child's birth!
It comes and goes every now and then,
and always makes us wonder its gonna come when!
Rain is so beautiful,
to watch it we feel wonderful!!"
- Rajendra Hegde, Std III A
Ya you read it rite....this was poem was written by me way back in the third standard. I had won the second prize in my school at that time for this poem of mine. Today, as I finally accomplish one more milestone in my life....I feel like that kid from standard 3 all over again. (I just went down and got drenched!!) As the title reads "The dawn of a new season" what do I mean by that? Does it mean that summer has just got over and the rainy season has started....quite obviously. But in my....and many of my friends case...it also means the a new season in life. Having just finished engineering...as my friend karen aptly puts it...I am now heading towards the big bad world! What does my future have in store for me.. I can't predict that. But, what I can say..is how much am I gonna miss my good ol' college days. These few lines from Bryan Adams' "Summer of 69" aptly describes what I did in my college life..
Man we were killin' time
We were young and restless
We needed to unwind
I guess nothin' can last forever, no
But, who the fuck cares? I had the best time of my life....did nothing great to be remembered. Ya, but will have many many great things to remember! Today when I handed over my paper to the invigilator, My heart felt heavy...Gosh its all over...no more jokes in the canteen...no more pulling legs....no more cupping...no more engineering! :'(
So here's a list of people I think who made my life in SFIT worth spending all these 4 years!!
1) Colin
2) Siddhesh
3) Anush
4) Sushant
5) Omkar
6) Steffi
7) Sheetu
8) Indu
9) Ray
10) Kiru
11) Amu
12) Ashok
13) Marwadi
14) Kale
15) Nishu
16) Deep
17) Pct
18) Tanvi
19) Pri
20) Ganju
21) Cheema
22) Jillian
23) Serena
24) Karen
25) Keshu
26) Sujay
27) Walke
28) Sucheta
29) Shenoy Sir
30) Nazneen Mam
31) Karen
32) Viral
and last bt nt the least...Sidanth Shetty!!
Am sorry if have missed out on anyone.....:)
As the run up to our farewell begins...All I would like to say is....
Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
ADIOS,
RAJ!!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
The wonder years!!
Well as the curtains are closing on my college life, I just thought that I would make a list of things that made my days in SFIT the most memorable ones.
IMP note: If u cant relate to a certain event thn u r probably nt part of it!!
YEAR 1:
1) First day of college reserving a seat for maself, like good ol school days.
2) Ma first crush and looking at her from the corner of ma eyes...lol.
3) Prof. Vishal(B.E.E) and his antics. (Remember the OHP screen?)
4) The damn workshop!!
5) Freshers Day
6) The conversations between me, colin and emerald.
7) My first movie with engg friends...swades...omkar..ma duet singer!!
8) Mosaic 04....volunteering for security.
9) IRIS 05.....still volunteering fr security.
10) My first PROM....wid jillian....n wt a jerk I was then!!
11) The long chats with Prof. Manmohan Singh(Engg. Drawing)
12) Prof. Preetimol Jose killing a pigeon and then hysterically cryin...."I keelled a peejaan!!".
13) The conversations between me, colin and omkar afta the drawing classes at borivli station.
14) EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!!
15) The day before my Applied Science 2 paper.
16) Certain unmentionable controversies!!
17) Preetimol..agen catchin me n sheetal eating oranges.."I cane smell..oranges, In my coll days I used to eat biryani..bt I neva got caught!!"
18) Volunteer's Party at Gorai....Esp..Shank...and....Arvin!!
19) The innumerable hook-ups!
20) Bunty aur Babli!! (YUCK!!) (Jillian n Wendy: Wat is dus bataa dus?)
21) Devang's mechanics viva!!
22) Star wars: Episode 3....colin translating stuff for sujay!
23) Star wars: Episode 4....me falling asleep....agape!
YEAR 2:
1) Ogling at the seniors(girls)!!
2) Making some very gud frenships!
3) SIROSS!!
4) Chatting with sheetal in practically all the lab sessions
5) Ice Panipuri at Pooja's
6) Mosaic 05...still doin security...god dammit!!
7) IRIS 06..finally shifted from security to marketing and organizing Group Dance!!
8) 9th FEB...IRIS 05...rock show!!
9) 17th FEB.....!!
10) The whole lotta politics goin on fr certain posts!!
11) EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!!
12) Certain unmentionable controversies!!
13) Late nite studying with madhur.
14) The sidanth shetty controversy!!
15) Retreat!!
16) Trip to Matheran(Especially Khan's)!!
17) A certain couple canoodling during exile!!
18) Missing out on the ARC trek!!
19) The innumerable break-ups and new hook-ups!!
20) New years at Omkar's..4 am..searching for naturals in lokhandwala!!
21) Vada Pav from I.C.Colony.
22) Ameya Hegiste doin an '8' at 80 kmph on the francis grounds after synergy!!
23) Ashok's reaction to me taking sum1 to PROM!!
24) Sujay asking for hindi porn at bg's place.
YEAR 3:
1) Time spent near the water filter!!
2) The wet trip to GOA!!
3) Mosaic 06...marketing co-ordinator dis time..
4) The smoky affairs.
5) IRIS 07....Marketing head...
6) IRIS 07 agen...a dream come true!!
7) Certain dates with 25 in it!!
8) The long phone calls in the month of October!!
9) Lobos with Kale!!
10) Piyush being fooled on the farewell fr the B.E students.
11) My first KT in life!!
12) Nite outs at college(Now showing - Justice Chaudary, Shapath etc)!!
13) EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!!
14) Certain unmentionable controversies!!
15) Late nite studying with madhur and ameya!
16) A nurse sticking her finger up Ameya's arse.
17) The extended vacation at siddhesh's.
18) Sushant's loose talks!!
19) Me and seema talking after hours abt IRIS!!
20) Pop Tates!
21) The jhol regarding project groups!
22) The month of silence between me n siddhesh!
23) My three angels: Pri, Tanu and Ganju (PTG)...
24) Pav Bhaji and Masala Papad at Bhagwati...3 am in d nite.
25) Apna anna ka coffee.
26) Prof. Salunkhe teaching us about the PETTY CONTRACTOR!!
27) Ashok and Maarwadi..mano-a-mano...in goa...(mungfali...concept...xerox!!)
YEAR 4:
EL SUPREMO -- SARS!!
1) Infy...job..yippeee!!
2) BPCL...outhouse project...yaay yaay yippee yippee!!
3) One nite in shitland!!
4) Anna agen on patil's bday!!
5) The most amazing trip to goa!!
6) The "official" on-wurk trip to kochi!!
7) Late nites at BPCL..wurking on the project!
8) My external guide..mr. Senthil Kumar!!
9) All the keeda kaandi in the classroom!!
10) Rose-day!!
11) Late nites at VIRAL'S!!
12) JC's
13) The most extraordinary viva I could have had....Project Management!!
14) My project!!
15) Chotta-Sekar!!
16) All the eat-outs after working hard for the project!!
17) The eunuch giving a blowjob to a man near dahisar checknaka at 3.00 am in the nite.
18) The drunkard following me and madhur...for half an hour!!
19) Borivli station Maska Pav and Pav Bhaji!!
20) The innumerable visits to chotu's chinees..(dats rite..its CHINEES)!
21) Sushant and his toothpicks!
22) Siddhesh and his toothpicks!!
23) The most fascinating journey from calangute to harambol on bike!!
24) Anush Nair at Goregaon Station!!
25) Jibran's Bday bash!!
26) Certain Unmentionable controversies!!
27) CAT and GRE...nuthng more..nuthng less!!
28) Madh Island..with ma class ppl!!
29) Clan - 13...the inhouse CS clan!!
30) Ashok almost killing Kale with a stone.
31) Nazneen Mam...if not for her...ma final year would have been a pain in d neck!!
32) Chillar showing the world that he is THE MAN!!
33) A certain junee throwing attitude at the rock show!!
34) Ma bday bash at JC's.
35) Mumbai Indians v/s Kolkata Knight Riders...Wankhede Stadium...16th May, 2008!!
36) MOCK ROCK!!...IRIS 08!!
I have not included things like studying together in the P.L..Revising before the vivas..the last minute presentations..pulling clips and bands frm girls...passing chits in the class....hogging tiffin like nethng...these events took place throughout the 4 yrs...and made me smile every time...every day!!
And ya after having spent all dese 4 years with all ma frens....I can say one thing fr sure..I am gonna miss each n every fren of mine...fr d rest of ma life..n when one day I would be sitting down and remembering these days...I am gonna laugh ma heart out!!
P.S - Guys I am sure i have missed out many many more things...If u can remember any please scrap them to me on orkut...or msg me d same!!
IMP note: If u cant relate to a certain event thn u r probably nt part of it!!
YEAR 1:
1) First day of college reserving a seat for maself, like good ol school days.
2) Ma first crush and looking at her from the corner of ma eyes...lol.
3) Prof. Vishal(B.E.E) and his antics. (Remember the OHP screen?)
4) The damn workshop!!
5) Freshers Day
6) The conversations between me, colin and emerald.
7) My first movie with engg friends...swades...omkar..ma duet singer!!
8) Mosaic 04....volunteering for security.
9) IRIS 05.....still volunteering fr security.
10) My first PROM....wid jillian....n wt a jerk I was then!!
11) The long chats with Prof. Manmohan Singh(Engg. Drawing)
12) Prof. Preetimol Jose killing a pigeon and then hysterically cryin...."I keelled a peejaan!!".
13) The conversations between me, colin and omkar afta the drawing classes at borivli station.
14) EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!!
15) The day before my Applied Science 2 paper.
16) Certain unmentionable controversies!!
17) Preetimol..agen catchin me n sheetal eating oranges.."I cane smell..oranges, In my coll days I used to eat biryani..bt I neva got caught!!"
18) Volunteer's Party at Gorai....Esp..Shank...and....Arvin!!
19) The innumerable hook-ups!
20) Bunty aur Babli!! (YUCK!!) (Jillian n Wendy: Wat is dus bataa dus?)
21) Devang's mechanics viva!!
22) Star wars: Episode 3....colin translating stuff for sujay!
23) Star wars: Episode 4....me falling asleep....agape!
YEAR 2:
1) Ogling at the seniors(girls)!!
2) Making some very gud frenships!
3) SIROSS!!
4) Chatting with sheetal in practically all the lab sessions
5) Ice Panipuri at Pooja's
6) Mosaic 05...still doin security...god dammit!!
7) IRIS 06..finally shifted from security to marketing and organizing Group Dance!!
8) 9th FEB...IRIS 05...rock show!!
9) 17th FEB.....!!
10) The whole lotta politics goin on fr certain posts!!
11) EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!!
12) Certain unmentionable controversies!!
13) Late nite studying with madhur.
14) The sidanth shetty controversy!!
15) Retreat!!
16) Trip to Matheran(Especially Khan's)!!
17) A certain couple canoodling during exile!!
18) Missing out on the ARC trek!!
19) The innumerable break-ups and new hook-ups!!
20) New years at Omkar's..4 am..searching for naturals in lokhandwala!!
21) Vada Pav from I.C.Colony.
22) Ameya Hegiste doin an '8' at 80 kmph on the francis grounds after synergy!!
23) Ashok's reaction to me taking sum1 to PROM!!
24) Sujay asking for hindi porn at bg's place.
YEAR 3:
1) Time spent near the water filter!!
2) The wet trip to GOA!!
3) Mosaic 06...marketing co-ordinator dis time..
4) The smoky affairs.
5) IRIS 07....Marketing head...
6) IRIS 07 agen...a dream come true!!
7) Certain dates with 25 in it!!
8) The long phone calls in the month of October!!
9) Lobos with Kale!!
10) Piyush being fooled on the farewell fr the B.E students.
11) My first KT in life!!
12) Nite outs at college(Now showing - Justice Chaudary, Shapath etc)!!
13) EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!!
14) Certain unmentionable controversies!!
15) Late nite studying with madhur and ameya!
16) A nurse sticking her finger up Ameya's arse.
17) The extended vacation at siddhesh's.
18) Sushant's loose talks!!
19) Me and seema talking after hours abt IRIS!!
20) Pop Tates!
21) The jhol regarding project groups!
22) The month of silence between me n siddhesh!
23) My three angels: Pri, Tanu and Ganju (PTG)...
24) Pav Bhaji and Masala Papad at Bhagwati...3 am in d nite.
25) Apna anna ka coffee.
26) Prof. Salunkhe teaching us about the PETTY CONTRACTOR!!
27) Ashok and Maarwadi..mano-a-mano...in goa...(mungfali...concept...xerox!!)
YEAR 4:
EL SUPREMO -- SARS!!
1) Infy...job..yippeee!!
2) BPCL...outhouse project...yaay yaay yippee yippee!!
3) One nite in shitland!!
4) Anna agen on patil's bday!!
5) The most amazing trip to goa!!
6) The "official" on-wurk trip to kochi!!
7) Late nites at BPCL..wurking on the project!
8) My external guide..mr. Senthil Kumar!!
9) All the keeda kaandi in the classroom!!
10) Rose-day!!
11) Late nites at VIRAL'S!!
12) JC's
13) The most extraordinary viva I could have had....Project Management!!
14) My project!!
15) Chotta-Sekar!!
16) All the eat-outs after working hard for the project!!
17) The eunuch giving a blowjob to a man near dahisar checknaka at 3.00 am in the nite.
18) The drunkard following me and madhur...for half an hour!!
19) Borivli station Maska Pav and Pav Bhaji!!
20) The innumerable visits to chotu's chinees..(dats rite..its CHINEES)!
21) Sushant and his toothpicks!
22) Siddhesh and his toothpicks!!
23) The most fascinating journey from calangute to harambol on bike!!
24) Anush Nair at Goregaon Station!!
25) Jibran's Bday bash!!
26) Certain Unmentionable controversies!!
27) CAT and GRE...nuthng more..nuthng less!!
28) Madh Island..with ma class ppl!!
29) Clan - 13...the inhouse CS clan!!
30) Ashok almost killing Kale with a stone.
31) Nazneen Mam...if not for her...ma final year would have been a pain in d neck!!
32) Chillar showing the world that he is THE MAN!!
33) A certain junee throwing attitude at the rock show!!
34) Ma bday bash at JC's.
35) Mumbai Indians v/s Kolkata Knight Riders...Wankhede Stadium...16th May, 2008!!
36) MOCK ROCK!!...IRIS 08!!
I have not included things like studying together in the P.L..Revising before the vivas..the last minute presentations..pulling clips and bands frm girls...passing chits in the class....hogging tiffin like nethng...these events took place throughout the 4 yrs...and made me smile every time...every day!!
And ya after having spent all dese 4 years with all ma frens....I can say one thing fr sure..I am gonna miss each n every fren of mine...fr d rest of ma life..n when one day I would be sitting down and remembering these days...I am gonna laugh ma heart out!!
P.S - Guys I am sure i have missed out many many more things...If u can remember any please scrap them to me on orkut...or msg me d same!!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Young man, young man, your arm's too short to box with God!
"I was an atheist......before I realized I was god" these were the words that the t shirt of a "just out of his teens" read. He was tall..had a dark complexion...had earphones in his ears probably listening to some heavy metal band...had three of his fingernails painted black..which affirmed my doubts of his listening to rock, was wearing his jeans way below his inner garments....had his hair: Mohawk style...I from all this deduced..that the guy dint know what his t-shirt meant...he was just trying to make a STYLE STATEMENT!! I for a moment forgot about what I had seen and concentrated more on those words i had just read on his t-shirt...I was an atheist before i realized I was god..well I am a self proclaimed atheist..not arrogant or prude...just that I don't find a reason strong enough to believe in him. People have bombarded me with sayings like "Maybe the atheist cannot find God for the same reason a thief cannot find a policeman". But, if tomorrow some one comes up with a reason as to why god exists, and one which is quite believable..the first thing I will do is to rush to a temple. GOD is one of the fav topics of mine. I can discuss endlessly on this one topic. I used to believe in god when I was a small kid..but as I started growing up...science got the better of me.
No matter how much I prove and prod,
I cannot quite believe in God;
But oh, I hope to God that He
Unswervingly believes in me.
~E.Y. Harburg, attributed
Questions always used to come up in my mind...why do different religions have different gods...why different prayers...why different forms of worship. When better sense prevailed I realized it was nothing but idol worship. It is the innermost fears of humans that has led to the creation of such different idols. Its nothing but human fear that makes them believe in god… some small incident caused due to the ever mysterious nature that led them to believe in evil spirits… now all they wanted was someone to protect them and so they “created” GOD. I am purposely putting created in quotes coz this is what I believe. I may be wrong too. But isn't it basic human psychology that when fear prevails , so should a savior. Like suppose when we are going by road for a long distance journey many of us have road sickness(that includes moi), which includes vomiting, stomach upset, giddiness. Many people advise us to take deep long breaths which supposedly cures the sickness. But if we look at it the other way round, isn’t it also the case that when we are taking deep breaths our entire concentration is on the breathing part and we temporarily forget that we had road sickness. So the power of the mind says that unless and until you are not concentrating on something, that something should not bother you. Here the road sickness is the fear and the deep breaths …your savior. Similarly in the case of god, evil spirits your fear and god your savior.
So isn't it that it is entirely in our mind as to what we think, what we believe and what we KNOW. I am not here trying to publicize my beliefs or make people change their ideologies, I am just assessing two sides of the same coin. There have been ample proofs present which do prove the existence of god. There have been miracles and incidents which have made me get goosebumps. And numerically if we look at the number of people who believe in god and who don’t…the latter would turn out to be a very very very small fraction. Its not that since I don’t believe in the ALMIGHTY(pun intended!!) I don’t take part in all the rituals. I do sit for all the pooja-path that takes place in my house. But that is only because I don’t want to hurt my parents by my beliefs. And the day I myself get to see and sense god’s presence I would be his strongest believer.
But what surprises, rather irritates me the most is the stupid rituals that are associated with the beliefs. The n number of fasts, the week long maybe sometimes month long barefoot walks, the piercings and pain associated in the name of sufferings, the numerous sacrifices……does that impress god? I don’t think so. So God minus those rituals is the idea that I would like to accept!! Hmm so all I can do now is send a message across to all those people who think I am arrogant or a fool by not believing in god. I request them not to loathe or despise me … I am just an ATHEIST… waiting to realize GOD!!
I don't know if God exists, but it would be better for His reputation if He didn't. ~Jules Renard
No matter how much I prove and prod,
I cannot quite believe in God;
But oh, I hope to God that He
Unswervingly believes in me.
~E.Y. Harburg, attributed
Questions always used to come up in my mind...why do different religions have different gods...why different prayers...why different forms of worship. When better sense prevailed I realized it was nothing but idol worship. It is the innermost fears of humans that has led to the creation of such different idols. Its nothing but human fear that makes them believe in god… some small incident caused due to the ever mysterious nature that led them to believe in evil spirits… now all they wanted was someone to protect them and so they “created” GOD. I am purposely putting created in quotes coz this is what I believe. I may be wrong too. But isn't it basic human psychology that when fear prevails , so should a savior. Like suppose when we are going by road for a long distance journey many of us have road sickness(that includes moi), which includes vomiting, stomach upset, giddiness. Many people advise us to take deep long breaths which supposedly cures the sickness. But if we look at it the other way round, isn’t it also the case that when we are taking deep breaths our entire concentration is on the breathing part and we temporarily forget that we had road sickness. So the power of the mind says that unless and until you are not concentrating on something, that something should not bother you. Here the road sickness is the fear and the deep breaths …your savior. Similarly in the case of god, evil spirits your fear and god your savior.
So isn't it that it is entirely in our mind as to what we think, what we believe and what we KNOW. I am not here trying to publicize my beliefs or make people change their ideologies, I am just assessing two sides of the same coin. There have been ample proofs present which do prove the existence of god. There have been miracles and incidents which have made me get goosebumps. And numerically if we look at the number of people who believe in god and who don’t…the latter would turn out to be a very very very small fraction. Its not that since I don’t believe in the ALMIGHTY(pun intended!!) I don’t take part in all the rituals. I do sit for all the pooja-path that takes place in my house. But that is only because I don’t want to hurt my parents by my beliefs. And the day I myself get to see and sense god’s presence I would be his strongest believer.
But what surprises, rather irritates me the most is the stupid rituals that are associated with the beliefs. The n number of fasts, the week long maybe sometimes month long barefoot walks, the piercings and pain associated in the name of sufferings, the numerous sacrifices……does that impress god? I don’t think so. So God minus those rituals is the idea that I would like to accept!! Hmm so all I can do now is send a message across to all those people who think I am arrogant or a fool by not believing in god. I request them not to loathe or despise me … I am just an ATHEIST… waiting to realize GOD!!
I don't know if God exists, but it would be better for His reputation if He didn't. ~Jules Renard
Saturday, November 24, 2007
LIFE AT ITS BEST!!!
I got up this morning, and got the shock of my life when I was told that I have been removed from my engineering college....I was shocked, flustered and what not!! Before I could even realize as to what was going on...my parents threw me out of the house for the same reason I was thrown out from college. I had apparently tried to rape one of my female professors in my college...OH.....MY......GOD!! My friends had deserted me....family disowned me...college thrown me....n even the lame puppy at the road was barking at me. I went to a roadside bar.....disheartened.....ordered some of the finest original vodka...and me like a bacchanalian was drinking away to glory when suddenly the police raided the bar...looking at my appearance they mistook me for a P.I.M.P and arrested me...I reached the police station...amazed at how bad a day can it be...and it was only turning out to be more worse!! The inspector tortured me to no ends....trying to make me confess my crime...how do I make him understand....that he is questioning me for the wrong crime!! Many different and horrid thoughts crossed my mind....why is life being so unfair to me...why am I being targeted for each and every other thing that is happening in this world.....quick....quick....I reached for the panic button..Where is it...damn..cant find it too.....HELP!! HELP!!
“Raj, Raj…….What happened? Why are you crying for help? Is something wrong?” I opened my eyes….the assuring face of my mom….brought me back to my senses…IT WAS JUST A DREAM!!
I got up...had some water...while my mom was trying to make me stay calm...I again thought about the dream...rape...crime...ouster from coll...thrown from the house..bar...P.I.M.P...jail..police..torture....boy what a nightmare that was!! After my mom was done pacifying me she went in to make some coffee, after having a refreshingly hot cuppa coffee...south indian ishtyle...I was left gazing at the coffee cup...what if I wasn't served the refreshing and endearing hot cuppa coffee every morning....what if life had really been so cruel....what if my dream had come true...what if my life was not the way it is now....WHAT IF?
I quickly got up....washed my face..and went out for a walk (thats the time when I do most of my thinking). I started to look back at my life...how beautiful it had been....no problems..school and junior college passed on very fast...had the time of my life there..made some of the best friends at that time....and then I ended up where I am now...S.F.I.T!
Engineering was the best thing that could have happened to me. The past three and a half years were a roller coaster ride....with life having its own share of ups and downs...but am I complaining? Okie I agree I have not been a very bright student...was never among the top 20...have got my share of failures...I really hagaaoed(college lingo!!) in CAT 2007...and still I maintain the big and bright smile of mine..LOL!! But the time I spent chitchatting in my class...ogling at all the new chicks in college..working my ass out for the college fests..hanging out with my friends daily in the canteen or outside...fighting and then patching up with friends for silly reasons....pulling each others legs..."cupping" each other endlessly.....passing small chits in the class to pass on a message...all this is what actually defines my engineering life! To sum it up....life has been pretty decent.
There is so much more things to look forward to...like the upcoming trip to goa.....yaay!! GO GOA!! Then the last semester of my engg....after which I will miss all my friends...(seriously guys!!) Every morning I used to get up and think....oh god yet another day....have to do all the stuff..again and again....but after having a nightmare like that..I sure have learned to appreciate the small and insignificant things in life...
So tomorrow morning when I get up...I surely am gonna have a big and bright smile on my face....thinking that I have got yet another day in my life..to meet the people I love....to do the things I always wanted to....to eat stuff I have craved for days...and to enjoy my life as it throws up new surprises and challenges at me. As my friend joey from the tele-serial F.R.I.E.N.D.S had once stated in the first season of the serial....Ice cream is not just vanilla...there are so many other flavors..there is chocolate...there is strawberry....there is sundae...then there is black current..all you need to learn is to grab the spoon when given an opportunity to eat it!! So I am now gonna learn to grab the spoon....and live life at its best!!
“Raj, Raj…….What happened? Why are you crying for help? Is something wrong?” I opened my eyes….the assuring face of my mom….brought me back to my senses…IT WAS JUST A DREAM!!
I got up...had some water...while my mom was trying to make me stay calm...I again thought about the dream...rape...crime...ouster from coll...thrown from the house..bar...P.I.M.P...jail..police..torture....boy what a nightmare that was!! After my mom was done pacifying me she went in to make some coffee, after having a refreshingly hot cuppa coffee...south indian ishtyle...I was left gazing at the coffee cup...what if I wasn't served the refreshing and endearing hot cuppa coffee every morning....what if life had really been so cruel....what if my dream had come true...what if my life was not the way it is now....WHAT IF?
I quickly got up....washed my face..and went out for a walk (thats the time when I do most of my thinking). I started to look back at my life...how beautiful it had been....no problems..school and junior college passed on very fast...had the time of my life there..made some of the best friends at that time....and then I ended up where I am now...S.F.I.T!
Engineering was the best thing that could have happened to me. The past three and a half years were a roller coaster ride....with life having its own share of ups and downs...but am I complaining? Okie I agree I have not been a very bright student...was never among the top 20...have got my share of failures...I really hagaaoed(college lingo!!) in CAT 2007...and still I maintain the big and bright smile of mine..LOL!! But the time I spent chitchatting in my class...ogling at all the new chicks in college..working my ass out for the college fests..hanging out with my friends daily in the canteen or outside...fighting and then patching up with friends for silly reasons....pulling each others legs..."cupping" each other endlessly.....passing small chits in the class to pass on a message...all this is what actually defines my engineering life! To sum it up....life has been pretty decent.
There is so much more things to look forward to...like the upcoming trip to goa.....yaay!! GO GOA!! Then the last semester of my engg....after which I will miss all my friends...(seriously guys!!) Every morning I used to get up and think....oh god yet another day....have to do all the stuff..again and again....but after having a nightmare like that..I sure have learned to appreciate the small and insignificant things in life...
So tomorrow morning when I get up...I surely am gonna have a big and bright smile on my face....thinking that I have got yet another day in my life..to meet the people I love....to do the things I always wanted to....to eat stuff I have craved for days...and to enjoy my life as it throws up new surprises and challenges at me. As my friend joey from the tele-serial F.R.I.E.N.D.S had once stated in the first season of the serial....Ice cream is not just vanilla...there are so many other flavors..there is chocolate...there is strawberry....there is sundae...then there is black current..all you need to learn is to grab the spoon when given an opportunity to eat it!! So I am now gonna learn to grab the spoon....and live life at its best!!
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